I’m Sneha Modi, a writer, educator, and mental health advocate who’s here to help people like her live in sanity.
I’m at the happiest point in my life today. I’ve got a doting husband who adores me. My mother is more supportive of my choices than ever. I’m pursuing a career in what I love- writing!
I’m cheerful and full of life. But this is not how I’ve always been.
I’ve suffered from anxiety and anger issues ever since I was little. A troubled childhood, parental issues, and no friends. That was my life. I buried myself in books so that I could top the class and prove my worth. To whom I didn’t know. Maybe to myself.
I almost went into depression in 2014 when I suffered a life-threatening accident. Having lost two of my best friends in the tragedy only aggravated my mental health issues and I was slowly slipping into a dark place.
Every day was a struggle. Getting out of bed seemed like an uphill task. One moment I was binge eating and the next, I had completely lost my appetite. I was sleeping 16 hours a day. People used to annoy me. And life just did not seem worth living.
I’ve never been a very confident person. Naturally, I didn’t think that I could get through whatever I was feeling. I had submitted to the belief that this is how I’m supposed to live. Anxious, worried, angry, and impulsive.
I caved to the demons in my mind. Until I didn’t. One day, I don’t know what came over me; I decided to seek help. Therapy was out of question, as I was too embarrassed. I had to help myself.
I started reading about it. I started devicing my own coping mechanisms. I resorted to meditation. There were a couple of daily activities I developed for myself and made a rule to follow them.
And life turned upside down. Not in a bad way like it usually does. I changed as a person. I’m now so much stronger and more mature. It wasn’t easy. There were so many things that I had to actively do to become this new and enthusiastic version of myself, which I will discuss throughout my blog.
I am just like you. I think. I overthink. I feel anxious. I get angry. I have panic attacks. But I have gradually taught myself how to overcome them.
Today, I love my life, and I thank God every day that I survived my accident in 2014; I would have hated to be unpopular in the afterlife too.
If you think reading about my struggles and what I did to get to the light at the end of the tunnel is something that you’ll benefit from, welcome!